Bad Start to My Week

Yup, it's a whiny post. Skip if you want.

Hmmm, where to start. You know how when you have a problem that seems so big...the small things just send you over the edge?? I'm totally there.
I have a rather old car, a 1998 dodge neon with almost 270,000km. It was my parents old car. They said that if I fixed it up, then I can have it. I really needed a car, so I did. To start I put about 1500 into the car. Including brand, spanking new tires...both all season and winter tires. Then about 2 months ago, my brakes went. Not wore down..they went. Thankfully, I was in my apartment building's parking lot...trying to park. So I just ran into the wire fence. All was ok. The car was also choking and barely starting up. Everytime I slowed down, she wanted to stall. So I took it to the shop....560.00 later...I thought she would at least last me until the spring. I know she's not perfect, she burns oil and needs a new fuel filter. You may wonder why I don't get a new fuel filter?? Well, that's because the idiots at Dodge decided to put the filter in the fuel tank. So in order to replace the fuel filter, I need a new fuel module. So to fix the oil burning problem will be about 1500...and the fuel module will be close to the same amount. The car is only worth 1500...so why bother to fix the bloody car!!! I went to visit my sister this weekend. Where I had a great time shopping, and just hanging out with her. We don't do it very often, so it was nice to see her. I drove into Ottawa with her, and no problems with the car. Then Sunday morning, we went to the grocery store...still no problems. That night, when I was on my way home, I didn't get 100 metres from her house before I started to have problems. I get just past Smith Falls and I had to pull over because the car was acting so badly. A woman, alone by the side of the road in the dark. I had the hood popped and tried to see if there was anything I could do. Oil was fine(just filled it up last week), the coolant was close to the add line...so I was hoping that was it...but I knew better. No one stopped to help the female. Which was good because I didn't get murdered. I know it's weird but I was also a bit miffed, because if I had been in real trouble I know that no one would have stopped to help me. (except an axe murderer maybe..) So I filled up the coolant and tried to start her up. Nothing. The stinkin car wouldn't start!! It took me a bit to get her started, had to give her some gas. Thankfully I made it home. (1 1/2 hrs away from my sisters) I was just crying when I got into town. The car had gotten so bad that at the stop lights I had to put it into neutral and rev the car for the whole light to keep it from stalling. Needless to say, it was a chore getting to work this morning with all the shifting and revving.
I still haven't found out if I'm getting the raise I asked for. I just want to know!!!! If I'm getting the raise, then I can get a new car. If not...then I'm screwed and have to go back to taking the bus. I'm close to tears because I'm so frustrated. I've had the car since June 14th. That would be 5 months and I've spent over 2000 on a car that's worth 1500. Yes, I'm an IDIOT!!! I, in no way blame my parents. I know they feel terrible. But I just feel like such a failure and such an idiot. That $2000 in 5 months equals to $400.00/month. I was so close to paying off my debt. Now I have added another $2000 to my debt load...but now I will have nothing but 5 months of driving to show for it. If I could afford another car, then I could at least trade this one in. But now...it's a junker...who's going to want to buy a car that is 8 yrs old and has almost 270,000km on it? I'll tell you who...no one. I just wasted $2000. I'm an idiot. I guess you live and learn. It's a pretty damn expensive lesson!

Then I lost my gold earring this morning. I dropped it and couldn't find it. And I started my period this morning.

But I'm supposed to concentrate on the positive things.

So here they are:

1)I found my female puppy, Kiya, chewing on my earring. She found an expensive earring for me and didn't destroy it by the time I took it from her.

2)I started my period before I woke up this morning. I wasn't prepared with a liner..but I didn't leak onto my nice flannel sheets or even the new knickers I had just bought.

3)The car started this morning....

4)I'll let you know